Fucked Up School
Name and info has been altered to protect the identity of these people :P
So this is 3:40 a.m.So this is Saturday the 5th of
October 2013, after having watched “the perks of being a wallflower” I decided
to write down some of my thoughts and feelings about what is happening in my
very intriguing life (sarcasm).
Many things happened in school this past September, I
lost a lot of friends, and I gained a couple of new ones. Me and the twins aren’t
friends anymore, basically cause I didn’t get the attention I wanted and wasn’t
willing to be anyone’s puppy dog. After many fights between the girls of our
year (bitch stealing the other bitch’s boyfriend) the ones that didn’t fight,
me, were left in the middle. For once in my exciting life, I didn’t get into a
fight, and I didn’t start one. Yet somehow they managed to push me in, and now
everyone of the opposite gang hates me. Well at least they won’t talk to me. So
I guess since the girls parted away from the others and I didn’t hang out with
the twins much, then we kind of created our own little group and we had an
amazing time. Me, Mary, Christie, Johnny, Mason and Christina. People I would
never even think of mixing together, but yet we managed to become friends and
have a blast. Our “gang” lasted for about 3 weekends, not more. Yesterday the
girls decided to leave our own little corner where we hanged out at breaks and
“reconnect” with the year. When I asked why the fuck aren’t we in our little
corner, the response I got was fail one. Doesn’t matter, 3 weekends were
enough. I mean it won’t last forever; I give it a month until we all become
friends again. I kind of can’t wait for it to happen, but at the moment, I like
where am at. (I don’t really know where I am)
As for my personal thoughts, I don’t really have any. I’m
attending school at the moment. I’m planning to go to England for Christmas. My
photography thing is being threatened by my ex-best friend who is about to get
a camera too and start his own little thing. Whereas my whole plan to “make it
big” with my photography went in the shits. I still want to become an actor and
director, I want to go to America, at the University of Southern California,
where all the best have gone to, but I don’t really think so since it costs
more than my house. My schools Greek play is coming up and next Wednesday the auditions
will take place. I can’t wait and I’m so excited to and I really want to get
in. Even though last year we did a fairytale, I was brilliant in it. Not being
trashy, but I really was. I had the best character and most importantly the
funniest one. I made the audience laugh, made the others laugh, and had a
blast, even though the whole road getting to the final result was atrocious.
This school year is turning out pretty well it started
off as really boring and exhausting but it seems to go by so quickly. I and my
friend florentina (wannabe actress) are having the funniest laughs in our math
lessons with our fluent English speaking teacher. It’s a joke people; the man
can’t even pronounce my name. Literally as bad as it sounds. My gcse subjects
are history, literature, economics and ancient Greek. The perfect subjects for
law, but I don’t mind keeping my options open. Still can’t get over the fact
that I’m going to waste two years of my life in the freakin army.
For entertainment nowadays, I’m stuck on YouTube. All
the youtubers, and the English YouTube crew, my favorite, “jacksgap” such an
inspiration those twins. I would love to be a youtuber, and get started in that
way, since I can’t in other ways. But I
still think I’m too young, so as soon as I finish my gcses I’m going to start
my own channel. I’ve planned everything out from now.
Its 4:04 in the morning now, after watching “the perks
of being a wallflower” I’ve reconsidered a lot of things. The beauty of that
film made me nostalgic. I feel the need for love, as I am single, and the need
for change. I can’t wait to get out of puberty, have my face “cleaned” and the
body I want. These aren’t insecurities; these are just barriers in my way. I’m
not the common insecure teen, I’m different. And my goal in life is to let
everyone know that. Peace out world <3
